waaaaah! nakakaloka yung dream ko!

i went to bed kasi around 1am na yata with APE’s blog on my mind since (hey, buddy im not thinking of having sex you or what, ok? dont flatter yourself too much haha! joke *peace*) it was the last of the blog rolls i visited last night. so anyway, i’ve read something about the obituary (i even commented ill compose one for myself) and it was stuck on my mind til i fell asleep…

i was captured by japanese guards (oo japanese talaga kasi di ko naiintindihan pinagsasabi nila ehh) and was kept in isolation for days without food. i was with some elderly women and they were all crying out for help. im not minding them. i just stared at the crying ladies until a little girl came out from behind the stack of boxes. she looked at me soo deeply that i dunno if i was hypnotized or something. she took my hand and guided me to the window. when i looked at her it was like she was telling me “its ok, you can jump off from here and no one will catch you.”

so, i jumped off the window and run as fast as i could but when i looked back, all that is behind me is a blank wall. i started to slow down. i noticed my relatives from afar dusting off their shirts. i approached them. my cousin may asked me: “bakit ‘di mo dinala yung tsinelas ko?” i answered back with: “tangina naman, papatayin na nga ako mas naalala mo pa yung tsinelas mo”

i tried to google my dream and this is what i got so far:

prisoner: To dream that you are a convict, suggests that some situation or relationship is making you feel restricted. You may be experiencing a loss of freedom in some area of your life. Alternatively, the dream may represent your feelings of shame and guilt. This dream image is trying to tell you to stop punishing yourself.

running: To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears.

To dream that you are running alone, signifies that you will advance to a higher position and surpass your friends in the race for wealth. Alternatively, you may be running from some situation or from temptation. Or it may also mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision.

dirty: To dream that you or something is dirty, represents your anxieties and feelings toward sex. The dream stems from low self-esteem and feelings of being unworthy. You need to purify your mind, heart and body.

child: To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state where you are longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting you innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

these dream interpretation maybe true or not. however, im still lost for its meaning… but one thing is for sure, i think my freedom is repressed. not that i cant express myself or do things i like but somehow dito sa bahay namin, i cant be the person ive always wanted to be. maybe dahil na rin sa past ko. waaaah! nakakapraning ang aga aga!